10 Miles Adirondack Run

I Did it!!! Did a lot of hills and my time was really good (for me). The Adirondack 10 miler from Lake George Village to Bolton Landing. I was really psyched. I'm not sure what I'll do next.

I also attended my first Al-Anon meeting. It was cathartic --- I cried my eyes out. Now I have to figure out when it is and where I will finally tell hubby that we have a REAL problem that needs to be addressed. It is difficult -- I know that it will bring about a lot of hurt feelings and I'm not sure how much I want to face that....but I also know that I don't want to continue fighting every time he drinks (and I'm not).

In the meantime, I am getting into good physical shape -- and trying to encourage hubby to do the same.

Update

Things had been going along on a pretty even keel --- then we had a huge blow out this past Friday. It was a "boys" lunch out --- which is always detrimental --- I get on edge because I don't know what to expect mood-wise when I get home......it was contentious --- and he'd been 'perving' all afternoon. On Cam as well --- which he had said he didn't do up until this time. We fought heading out to see a play.....he slept thru it --- fought all the way home --- almost violently so --- with me speeding in the car -- and him saying he was going to get out! It was very ugly. I still feel bad about the way I behaved. Plus, I hurt him with the seat belt --- he took it off and me trying to force it on him. Not Good. The next day --- we just sort of stayed out of each others' way --- I went for a bike ride and some running. Sunday -- it was like we were totally different people --- we got along --- had the kids down for Niki's birthday and had a barbecue. Monday was good also......It's like we are schizophrenic.