Getting the MoJo Back

AFter the end of tri-season - I was slacking off a bit - and then comes the holidays, and the whole divorce thing - which is still in the works...and I just completely lost my workout Mojo. So - that said, in the last two weeks I have been a workout queen - getting to classes, getting on bike trainer, running in miserable weather and running whenever I got an opportunity. Good deal. I am much happier -

Now if I could get my heart back - divorce sucks - and then meet a really great guy - or so I thought and he tells me that he can't keep spending time with me - after a hot and heavy few weeks - because he still cares for someone else. Then he keeps stringing me along by an occasional message or had me over for a weekend. I really cared a lot for him and thought things were great - and the messages he is sending me are things like "I know I'm probably giving up the best thing for me .. meaning me".

Oh well -- back to triathlon training - spending time with friends and my dogs and chorus. Singing really is great.

It is official

Well, It is official - we are divorcing! I am moving this weekend to a nice little cape cod in our area. Couldn't find anything to buy right away so I decided to rent for now. Nice clean house with a two car garage and I can have my "girls" over when I want. Nice.

We just couldn't be together anymore - fought every day and annoyed each other to no end. Can't wait now for things to get settled - ready to finish this chapter and move on.

September 11, 2010

One of the best days of summer - I was in Newport staying at a Wyndham - decided to take the Block Island Ferry over to Block Island (that is redundant I know) - for a 15K race (running) that I had entered. It was a picture perfect day - sunny, breezy and about 75 degrees. Once on the boat - a little early was seated on the top deck next to two guys - Mark and Paul - we started chatting a little on the way over. Hit it off right away - and they asked when we disembarking what Ferry I would be taking back - 5:00? Yes. They would too. They were heading there for the first time, so asked me a little about the area. We talked about camping at Fisherman's Memorial State Park also. They were very interested in that --- great campground.

I went and ran my race - walked a few times - very hilly! I hate hills. LOL. They went to the Lighthouse at the South side of the island and walked around town - and had a picnic lunch they told me. After the race I walked around town - but not for long - didn't have much time before boarding. Once on board I looked for them and they looked for me -- we met and sat together again. Talked about our day -- and talked, and talked - it is an hour ride. They invited me to join them in Newport for dinner -- I was thrilled. Felt like a teenager out on a hot date. Ran back to my hotel - showered and dressed quickly - met them down on Bannister's Wharf.

We hugged -- greeted each other then walked a little to a place called the Landing. Had a wonderful dinner - bottle of wine - and talked, and laughed a lot. We exchanged emails and said we would all keep in touch. They were from Salem, Ma. - two of the nicest guys - intelligent, good looking, and fun to be with. I can totally understand their attraction to each other as I found them to be very attractive as well.

Back to the date - it was the Anniversary of Sept. 11 - which we talked about visiting Ground Zero - and our own experiences that day. It was a bit of a remembrance, and at the same time the day was one of the best - 2010 - for me. Thanks to my new friends.

Sailing Season coming to an end

Well - it is September and the boat has been sailed once so far this season. By me, alone. This was one of the best summers on record weatherwise - and since my husband and I are splitting up - maybe one of the worst for us. We only got up to the boat to put the sails on - then after deciding to split - he spent a week there - at the dock - and I spent a few weekends getting away up there. One of which - I took the boat out for a pumpout - waste - and then went for a sail. Beautiful - one of the best experiences of the summer for me.

Now that the weather is changing it will be more difficult to spend time there - but hope to get a few more weekends in before the sails come down and the boat comes out of the water. One of the few things that we have agreed to is that we will share ownership of the boat and dock for now - have to get something written up - it is valuable to both of us.

Sensitive

Was chatting with a friend this morning and the subject of AA and Alanon came up -- strangely -- I was very sensitive talking about it. Not sure why. I think maybe it is because it seems that I've been dealing with issues surrounding alcohol for so long that I'm feeling beaten by it at times. There was also some mention of the fact that I had a connection on her for a drink recipe of the day --- which I guess if you are recovering it is not the type of thing you would want to see on a blog.

In the meantime - I had a great swim this morning and planning on a walk on my lunch hour --- weather is finally improving. Spring is here!

Afternoons

I'm getting to be such an endorphine junky!!! I've been swimming this week mornings --- Mon., Wed., and got so high on getting things right that the rest of the day seems like such a let down. Then I either need to run or ride on my lunch hour or after work to get that kind of high again!

I guess now I understand what drives most of us to work out as much as we do. Today is a "boys lunch" day --- and I got a call around 3:00 that my SO was home and very sleepy. I can handle sleepy, it's grumpy and irritable when I get home that I can't handle. I spend most of the afternoon anticipating an argument when I get home --- today I'm planning a walk with the "girls" (puppies) as soon as I get home.

The weather today is 83 degrees and sunny --- yahoo!!

Try again

We r at it again.....or just continuing same argument? Talking thru the news...I'm supposed to b more interested. He's interested in what I do!